Thank yous to everyone who left nice comments or wrote me several long emails (which a few people did). I am not feeling much better, but I am grateful that it doesn't feel like the entire planet hates my guts right now. Just a select few and most students.
I'll repeat here what I wrote on my livejournal-- don't call a suicide watch on me...but don't think I'm a happy camper either. My smile is a disguise. I know this funk will pass, but I don't
know when, and I don't know how to change the things that are supposedly not in my hands to change.
[I'll post more later tonight maybe after I do zine, distro, and research paper stuffs]